It's all an act;

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Wow, looking back, it has been a couple of hectic and busy months. That probably explains why I havent been blogging, because I didnt have the time nor strength to.

Having the "O"s this year, I've decided to stop sleeping during lessons, with the aid of my friends who are sitting beside me, telling them to wake me up whenever they see me dozing off; unless they doze off themselves.

I'm wondering if I should just kick out Geog and SS as my subjects. Actually, I'm able to handle Geog, but my "handle" means getting a mere pass most of the times or SOMETIMES get lucky with a grade 'B'. However, I have NO interest and no faith in SS AT ALL. No matter how hard I try to try, just cannot. I'm able to write a two-page long essay for a 25marks question, but ending getting hilarious marks like 2/10. I doubt I've even scored anything near to 50% in any of my tests for SS since Sec 3.

Oh, and if you write a two-page long essay and get such "fantastic" results, it either means you're DUMB, or you're writing nothing but CRAP. Oh, I ain't dumb, that means I'm writing crap. So from now on, this fucking SS subject is out. So if SS is out, what for keep Geog, when they're called Combine Humans?

Rubbish. We study for TWO subjects, and only get a grade for ONE subject. Combine Humanities. Combine Science. Fucking load of rubbish.

NEVERMIND. Probably 20 years down the road, when I'm a rich old guy who accomplished all my goals and all I do is sit on my sofa inside my huge bungalow smoking a huge long pipe, I'm gonna make my way down to MOE and confront them their senseless way of education, point and expose out all their "rubbish", and probably save my children and grandchildren and great-grandchildren from this load of crap way of studying that all of us are suffering right now.

Oh right, good morning. Time to wake up; that was a wonderful dream I had, eh? *knocks*

Basketball tournament was one of the major events in the past month, and yes, once again, as usual, we got trashed a couple of times and won a couple of matches, not because we're good, but because the oppoents really sucks. Okay, what I'm trying to say is that.. Oh yes, we didnt get into the 2nd round; I'd surprised if we did. =D

There's nothing much to talk about lately. I've been killing myself because of A.maths lately, which I'm determine to get a freaking A for that. I used to love maths, and never scored anything but Band 1 or As from Primary sch till sec 3. I tried listening in class, but my speed was so much reduced due to slacking too much in the previous year; I couldnt catch up. ArgH!

I cant wait for this year to past. After 'O's, we no longer need to study maths. No more chinese, no more social studies, no more geog, no more Lit, no more this, no more that. Poly life's gonna be fun. Much fun. (Although we still gotta study something else)

I'm craving for a new bag right now. My current school bag has been with me for a couple of years, and I think it time to get a new one to replace the old and tattered one. I'm wondering if I should get Crumpler, but gosh, the price tag sure doesnt see eye to eye with my wallet. Oh well, I've been wanting to buy a Addidas jacket since last year, but that was never turned into action. It just makes me drool whenever I walk past the shops.

Man, it sucks not being able to work, to earn cold hard cash and buy simply whatever I want for myself.

But one of the sweetest thing I remembered was Valentines', of not being lonely like the past few years. Afterall, its love that makes the world go round.

How Foolish I was.

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Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Ingrowth Toe Nail (Correct Spelling?) + Severe Infection.

I felt the pain on Wednesday, but I ignored and continued daily activities.

On Thursday, infection was showing, but I didnt really do more than just applying medicating cream I found inside my kitchen's cabinet.

On Friday, it got a LITTLE bit worst, but nevertheless I still attended the LAST basketball training; which I've been skipping ALL THE WAY since the holidays started, due to work. Ouch. I think that's a huge contributor to the state I'm in right now.

On Saturday, walking became a hinderance. I had to minimise walking, and I was looking for better medication cream in my dad's bedroom. It hurts, pretty much, but I still went to work as it doesnt cause any disrupt to my vocal or mental health. Flesh; pus; blood, everything was coming out. The countdown meeting with my primary sch friends were cancelled, so I called Clara and she accompanied me till 11.30 before joining her friends, which luckily didnt take the aeroplane unlike my side. During the walk at Citylink, some fucker kicked my leg, and man, I tell you; I yelled. The strange thing was no one heard, except Clara. And I immediately went home. Straight.

On Sunday, I went fishing with my family; a long planned event since 3 weeks ago? I took a chair, sat down, and started casting, and it was roughly an hour till I got a bite. I stood up; thats all I could do, no walking. Thus, I couldnt follow the direction of the fish was swimming, and I was letting my tension too loose which allowed the bloody fish to swim right to underneath the "bridge" I was standing on, and got my line snapped the moment it touched the edge of the wood.

The main cause; I didnt walk, I COULDN'T walk.

I was so damn pissed. When you miss the first catch of the day it means that your entire day at the fishing pond is gone. $35 gone, 8 hours of your life doing nothing more than casting the rod and hooking up nothing but seaweed; gone. I changed my reel to "Fireline", some type of line that even a pair of scissors cant even cut through; you have to snap it like 3 or 4 times then it'll break. But since then, I didnt even feel a tug for like 3 or 4 hours.

And my toe hurts like hell, very very bad. I had pus flowing non-stop, and like a 2-cm piece of flesh protruding out, and practically disabled my entire right foot. And off I am, to the car, to sleep and to enjoy music; hopefully can relieve the pain.

Useless. We went to the clinic after the wasted day at Yishun Fishing Pond, and the doctor said that he was UNABLE to do ANYTHING at all, because:

- I'll scream so hard that the patients outside will think he's killing someone inside.
- It'll be very very messy.
- He doesnt have enough facilities to do anything.
- The queue outside was too long.

And off to CGH, A&E department. Mini OT Theatre. It was exactly like TV programmes. Green "curtains", knifes, the huge spot like above your very eyes, etc. I yelled when the doctor (female), cleaned my wound. I yelled when she gave me my jab; 3 jabs, if I remembered.

The worst thing was when she sliced my toe, I wasnt feeling 100% numb. Yes, I yelled as well, and I practically tore the blanket. She apologised, and waited for like a minute or 2 before continuing. Wow, I'm surprised how great the jab was, I felt NOTHING. When the operation ended 20 minutes later, I could jump, run, and walk normally. I felt nothing at all! Just felt.. Toe-less.

BUT.. when my mum was doing the payment and collection of medicine, the effect of the Jab slowly begins to fade away. Man, I promise you, I wont forget that pain. I was biting my shirt, pulling my hair, and whether if my tears did give way, I dont know. I felt that someone is actually sawing my toe off, BIT by BIT, SHARP pain like needles stabbing non-stop. There was no way I could walk without the help of my mum; I'd probably have to use a wheel-chair if I was alone.

What happened to my toe? A slith below the root of my nail to remove the pus; 1 sitch. Half of my toenail was removed, completely. Not horizontal, but vertically. The piece of flesh that was protruding out that I was mentioning earlier, was also removed. Well, basically, the operation and whatever shit that came before that was still bearable pain. But the moment the effect of the JAB goes away after the op, I almost died. Hahaha.

Oh, and why didnt I take painkillers? The JAB itself is a painkiller, and I have to wait 4 hours before I can swallow those colourful pills that can get me out of misery.

Yes, 4 hours, I waited; 3am. Not a minute later. It took another 20 minutes for the effect to take place, which then got me some sleep.

Overall - One hella experience. I got to feel what exactly PYHSICAL PAIN is like. I cant imagine those people operation on the stomach or having 20 sitches on the back after being in a gang fight would feel. Oh, and you tell me, if its a good start of a new year. Hahaha. =)

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All I can say is that you're hella PETTY, I wasnt even scolding you or ANYONE else, I just wanted to know why. It was only said that we go for COUNTDOWN. The part where you guys wanna meet up earlier BEFORE the countdown was because you realised you had the wedding stuff that clashed on that day. Basically, you made up that part.

You wedding dinners weren't on that day of countdown itself. If you could scarifice a couple of sleep, everything would be OKAY. If I were you, I'd probably handle things in another way. A more MATURE way. A win-win situation.

Oh, and my toe wasnt in a very ideal condition on that day itself, but despite that, I still will make it, if only you did.

- "Getting people to go out is that easy?"
You're always being the WET BLANKET, for uncountable times. Call it unique or whatever bullshit, it sometimes gets on my nerves, and I dare to say, most of our nerves. The way you pour cold water; you dont think twice.

Yes, indeed you are ONE of the bigshots among us, the words that comes out of your mouth will always be put to consideration, and eventually, taken to action. You think you can always win, yea, because indeed, you do win all the time.

But now that things are different, yes, I'm out to correct you. I'll make you learn, that even when you're having moodswings, you cant take it out of people. I'll make you learn, that MAJORITY wins.

I guess the times all of us had during 2003', Primary 6, are long gone. All of us have our OWN seperate lives, and the old birds no longer have a spot to stay on the tree. Perhaps its just a FEW of us, that wishes to continue that kind of relationship, friendship. And no, you're definitely not one of them.

Oh heck, take care, thats all I can say. Lets hope you can wake up, after your O's. Hope you excel in your studies, and achieve your goals; because that's probably all you care about. YOURSELF.

Goodbye, Karen. The best memories, will be the scars you left behind.

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Yes, and half of the message, applies to WHOEVER thats reading my blog now. Because, honestly, no one else reads my blog, except you guys. Hahaha. =)

How Foolish I was.

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Monday, December 26, 2005

Merry Christmas everyone, though its abit late. Haha.

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How Foolish I was.

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Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Okay guys, I'm gonna do a really crap post, since I havent update for sooo long. I'll just type whatever its on my mind; whatever that comes.

I met alot alot of friend while working.. For the sake of remembering them when I look at my posts in future, I think it'll be ideal to type it out. Haha. Great people like: Clara, Yue Ying, Dawn, Arthur, Tray, Katerine, Kelvin, Fiona, Clement, Stephanie, Shaun, Jasmine, Yong Li, Jason, Gill, Daryl, Xiao Wei, Shu Hui, Jay, Mei Yan, Vivian, Ivy, Lenny, Kirsten and many more, which I cannot/dont know the name. Haha. Oh
and let me mention 1 more thing, ALL of them are older than me. But ALL shorter. Hahahah!

And believe it or not, NOT a single of them guessed my age correctly. The oldest guess for my age was 21; a little bit insane, and the lowest was 16. Hahaha, do I look that OLD? Nono, mature. Hahaha.

Atrium sales at Plaza Sing was one of the best locations. Great sales every single day, great place, and plenty of things to do, never never boring. Lasted for a whole week, it was the most fun work place I've been in so far. Hougang Mall, Toa Payoh, Tampines Mall, Bishan, Jurong Point, Bukit Panjang, IMM are places I've been to. Toa Payoh is also another damn bloody good location. The people there are friendly like hell (perhaps they love my magic), and the sales there is simply awesome.

Ah, I also know how to talk better now, and yes, my magic presentation for coins and rubber bands and pens catagory has definitely improved. Because I cannot use cards during work, I can only do magic with daily items. Once, I did a 15 mins performance to a crowd of up to 10 people, WITHOUT cards. Remember, no cards at all, only with borrowed items and impromptu stuff. You have any idea how insane was that? Hahaha. =D

Yea, I ate the biggest chicken drumstick with Tray, from Carrefour.

Arthur, Tray, and I had a super low cost meal; we ate like blangadash workers, sitting on floor, with a carton box as a table. Hella fun.

Nice leftovers sushi I had with Mei Yan.

Saw the world's most expensive toothbrush, from Arthur. Hahaha.

I went to curl my hair with the freaking curler, and burnt my forehead. Then, I had to use the straightner to make it straight back, and burn my head again. Fiona's products. Haha.

Got pinched by Jasmine till a blueblack; damn TomBoys.

Learnt how to take bus home from Woodlands; Yue Ying. (P.S I never never know how to take buses; I'm a COMPLETE idiot when it come to buses.)

Played Lan and KICK ASSES with complete ownage with Tray at Paradise's Lan Shop; Counter-Strike.

Caught a Movie with Clara today; "The Promise", and went to shop for Christmas Gifts. Thanks for the Album! =P

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I'm suppose to be in school today, some shit mass run. Orientation for our new School in Hougang, and 100 students are suppose to run from Punggol all the way to Hougang, around 5Km distance, passing on the HIHS flag thing. A bit lame, I thought, so I didnt go. Besides, if I did, I sure cannot make it; I havent been exercising for dunno how long. Die man.

I had a pretty bad flu yesterday, and Clara recommended me to take "Lemsip" a cold and flu reliever. And yes, it did work! Within half an hour. Hahaha.

And TODAY, I was walking to Somerset Station with Clara, I saw Lynn, my school-mate. So I went to say hi, and she was holding a file like thing, so i asked, "Wah, you working as surveyer arh?"

Then, she nodded and started to talk about what poor kids from where where where and how unfortunate they are etc etc, and I thought to myself, "Shit, some donation shit, shit."

- "Ok ok, cut the crap, donations?"
- "Yea man, haha."
- "Oh great, just my luck to say hi to you. How much?"
- "$10"

Shit, I almost fainted. Haha, yes, and in the end, I did give. Heart pain man, hahaha. Just my luck. Hahaha. Then Clara bought me Lunch, say what want to share the cost of the donation. Sweet.

She had to rush for some old friends meeting at Sentosa, chalet kinda thing. So it was byebye at around 6.50pm, at Bugis area, which was a place where my magic friend ALWAYS hang out at.

Made a couple of calls and met James and Daren. Finally, MAGIC. Havent touched cards for a long long time, everything is rusty. Due to work, my skills lagged a bit, and I saw plenty of new shit from those 2 guys. Have yet to see Mark.

Right, thats about all, see you guys, and Merry Christmas. =) For primary school friend, camp at Carey's house is on 22nd. So mark your calenders, clear all you errands, cancel all your other things on that day. Hahaha.

How Foolish I was.

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Friday, November 25, 2005

YIPPIE.. Received in mail; my check! But for only 2 working days. The rest of the days' pay will come next week; damn.

Sales definitely allows me to gain ALOT of experience in whatever I do. I make new friends, knowing how the business industry roughly works. I've also got bolder; things like that.

Man, if Magic is someone I can thank, I would. Magic has really helped me in ALOT of ways. Almost like half of my sales involved magic; to convince the customers etc. Seriously, it WORKS. And friends I made with it. It simply.. the BEST hobby I've took up in my entire life. Its been more than a year now.

One MAGICAL thing that I'm always unable to find out is why the digits in my Bank Account is always getting smaller. :D

I'm usually bored during the off-peak hours. 12 - 2; the crowd is usually amazing; thats when the people who have spending power comes out; perhaps for lunch etc. Then from like 3 - 6, its total boredom. Talk cock with other promoters, slacking, going to toilets every 15 mins, is probbal what we do to spend time. There REALLY ISNT any people. Except bunch of pretty girls, teens, whose spending power are practically ZERO. Yea, and if my location is good; like Orchard Area, theres plenty for me to see; and sometimes, talk to. HAHAHAHA.

I'm gonna bank my check later. Weee!.. Its never been better to see my Bank Account "Hui1 Fu4" to 4 digits number.

Damn, when good things happen, bad things also comes along. When I rejoice about getting my first check, my father did something wrong and my comp was.. "Boom". I had to reformat the entire system; and damn that sucks. He starts to complain to me that he'll lose all the songs he downloaded, my brother yells and shouts "NO!!.." as his games will be gone, as well as songs. FUCK, you think only you 2 kena fuck izzit?! I had over 5GBs of magic videos; and information INSIDE this freaking computer. And not to say, nearly 1GB of misc. music are also inside. All my pictures, all my files. FUCK!..

Seriously, I wont hesitate to get a new comp. But if I do, I wont be able to survive for the next year, while I mug for Os; not able to work etc.

Yawns. And you know why I'm blogging now? Because I'm off from work today. Man, never felt better to sleep till 11am, but of course, losing that 70bucks.

Oh boy. Time to get my butt off the chair, and find some friends.

How Foolish I was.

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